Santhosh's ramblings

It was an “eerie” experience – the EHA server was being migrated and so there were changes, which needed to be made in my E-mail account. Over phone, our IT team gave instructions but I could not sort the issue out. So they decided to use a program “Team Viewer” and take over the control of my computer from a distance…I at home and the team at office…. And I saw the files being opened, they trying to close folders which I had left open and change around some settings…. with no one handling the computer directly… The feeling was a bit discomforting – how can some one take over what is mine, and run it the way they want it…. I can do better – I am sitting near the machine, I can easily do all this….Any way I own this machine! But wisdom prevailed…the realization that I am not as “tech savvy” as they are and at least at times it is better to hand over the control to some one who knows what needs to be done…. I waited for a few minutes – saw the difficulty they were facing –

Waiting in the passport office for more than 6 hours for some information on my son's passport, after almost a year after sending in the application, was an excellent lesson on community. I was sitting at the beginning of a long line (we had seats to sit down!) and I was asked to sit there till the file would come down from another office else where. So from 10.00 AM to 2.00 PM, (after 2 hours of waiting outside)  many came behind me, got into the office room, met the officer and went off. I kept waiting till finally the file came up. Over these 4 hours, communities were created and broken. Some lasted for a few minutes some for a few hours, but none lasted beyond the time we were there. As people waited for the Officer to come in, started sharing on how long they have been waiting for the passport, some for 3 months, some 4 and others 6 months (I had the privilege of waiting the longest - One year and one month) and a sense of community emerged. There was "empathy"

Moth eaten appearance is classically defined for Bone Tumors in X-rays and is described as “Areas of destruction with ragged borders”. This sign in X-ray implies more rapid growth of probably a malignancy. The common bone tumors which have such appearance are Myelomas, Metastases, Lymphoma and Ewing’s sarcoma. In Medicine, this is dangerous – the signs denote a rapidly advancing Malignant Lesion, which could potentially reduce your life span. The literal meaning is - Eaten away by moth larvae or Old and timeworn: or Shabby; decrepit. In 1965 in a lab a mutation of mice occurred,. The   affected   mice   could   be   recognized   at   3   or   4   days of   age   by   patchy   absence   of   pigment   in   the   skin, and   later   by   patchy   absence   or   thinness   of   hair   that gave   the   mice   a   moth-eaten   appearance. By   3   weeks   of   age,   lesions   usually   developed   on   the feet and progressed   rapidly. Mortality of affected   animals was   high   from

Tears are of three types – the “Basal tears’ is the normal lubrication of the cornea and conjunctiva by ongoing secretion of tears, which keeps the eye moist, smooth and clean… The Reflex tears are those which are produced in excess than normal basal tears, when foreign bodies or dust particles come into contact with eyes, again a normal reflux mechanism to wash out the dirt. There are also the tears due to Infection or inflammation, which again, is way of washing out the bacteria and the infection by increased fluid production. But the one which is most well known is the “psychic tears” or emotional tears – this is called crying…if you do not know…! And this could be due to any emotion – the “Fright, flight and fight reaction (like when a dog jumps at you!) or sorrow and pain or even joy and happiness and excitement…And the cause is not the local irritation, but internal changes of Hormones which act on the tear glands and increase the fluid production…for what? To let others know

The heart which pumps blood and keeps the “systems running “the metabolism happening, the cerebral perfusion maintained, and thus consciousness and reasoning alive….And heart continues to beat…one is alive… But if the “reasoning” and “consciousness” is not perceptible to the Medical professional either by “tests of brain stem function” or an EEG which is “flat” one labels the person to be “brain dead” or in “persistent vegetative state”…and more dead than alive…or rather dead but alive because the heart keeps the perfusion going on….Current definitions define death as brain death… Or if heart stops and if one is able to sustain the function through an extra-corporeal pump, and this keep systems perfused and running – is the person alive…Heart dead but function alive by mechanical support…” The fact that Science is a man made method of unraveling the creations mysteries, and as more mysteries are raveled, our understanding of “Death and Life” will also continue to emerge….! But if

What would a “Self with feeders transplanted to the Word” look like - ? A self in submission to the word: a self under the direction and control of the holy spirit; a holy spirit   which permeates into every nook and corner of our inner man – where self tries to have its way….a self which has no self…and self which is dead to self but alive in the sprit to God..

The wisdom tooth – “the impacted ones” – are those who refuse to grow out the way it is expected to grow and function the way they are expected to…. The challenge of this is, it is usually quite tough to remove, the roots would have been deeply imbedded into the bone and one needs to cut into the jaw bone and extract this tooth….And if you leave this not taken out, it will continue to give constant pain and irritation and at times infection… Glioblastoma Multiforme (GM) – is a brain tumor, which is a has a peculiar quality in that it infiltrates into the surrounding brain tissues – and so the separation between the normal cells and the tumor cells is very difficult to delineate…and so any surgical excision of the tumor is likely to be incomplete – some of the cells are always left behind….and this leads to frequent recurrence..In most cases….and so only a partial excision is practical, one needs to treat this with Radiation etc….even this with not 100% results…recurrence does happen…