Santhosh's ramblings

What you see here is the imprint of the body and wings of a bird who tried to fly through a glass. The glass which separated the room from   the world   outside, would have been invisible to the bird’s eyes. In a hurry to get to the other side, where   the   bird thought the grass is greener, there is more to life that what it is going through   today, there   might   be something   better   on   the   other side, it hit a wall. It did not even know that there was a wall. It was so caught up in desires and dreams that the wall was invisible. And the outcome - injuries, pain and an even a broken wing! It might be sitting   somewhere   on   the   tree outside nursing its wounds! Is it not the picture of my life at times. Caught in my desires and dreams so much that I do not see the wall which is visible to others but not to me.  The wor...

Mary Magdalene went to the disciples with the news: “I have seen the Lord!” And she told them that he had said these things to her.” John 20:18   This is what I would like to be too. To go out and encourage each other with this news, I have seen the Lord, and tell each other what the Lord has been telling and teaching me.  But this event of recognizing and hearing Jesus, “Jesus said to her, “Mary.” She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (Which means “Teacher”).” John 20:16, was preceded by a time of confusion and discouragement. Early in the morning while it was still dark Mary went to the tomb with certain expectations and found that, it was not to be. Her expectation of closed tomb, with a dead body inside, was replaced by a picture of an open tomb with nobody around. How like me, looking at Jesus through my expectations and places where He is not to be found! Later disciples joined her, in her confusion and bewilderment. But in this season of confusion, ...

I remember as a young child growing up with a recurrent nasal allergy and frequently falling sick. It was complicated by a history of febrile seizures. So, I was protected from undue exposure by well-meaning parents. This had in addition to the protective effect had some pleasure too. I remember enjoying the special care and concern. And at times feigning being unwell (late night when fearful thoughts come in) and parents waking up to care and console me. And this becoming a recurring behavior trait for a few years. Today as a physician I can imagine the concerns my parents would have had as non-medical people. Every possible medical treatment was tried on me, now I feel that more because of the feigning than real illness. Recently sharing a pain  I was experiencing with friends, I was wondering if I was exaggerating it to receive care more than what I really need! My old traits acting up. I have seen many such patients later in life as a doctor. I remember RK who used to come ever...

We are sorry to inform you of the passing away of Dr. Lydia John (MBBS Batch of 1988) on 28 December 2022. Born 09/12/1970 at Kotagiri, Dr. Lydia shared her birthday with at least one other strong, intelligent, beautiful, brave, Godly, compassionate, and overall exemplary woman we all know - Dr. Ida Sophia Scudder. However, the demure, quietly confident woman with the sweetest smile and sparkles in her eyes that remained till she closed them forever this morning will remain the Dr. Lydia we all know and love. Lydia’s strength was based on the strong foundations of her close relationship with God and His word. Dr. Lydia stood for and upheld justice and excellence, speaking up for what was right and defending her right to do so. The girl who came to Vellore in 1988 as the epitome of simplicity and innocence had attributes that belied a strength that comes from a steadfast faith in God and a commitment to serving Him through medicine. During their post-graduate training period, Dr. Lydia ...

Recent conversations with some family members, sorting through the nuances of a positive NIPT screening test and the subsequent termination of pregnancy due to life-incompatible deformities were quite challenging and confusing. The conversations were mostly about their interactions with health care professionals and their processing of information. Given below are a few observations from my reflections on these conversations. The power equations in health care : we as health care professionals can no longer live with the power of our knowledge. We have for centuries lived with the power that comes from our knowledge. We are experts because we think we have more knowledge than the average human being (which might be true), and this gives us power over "them." We need to move from this knowledge- and expertise-based power equation and recognise that we are co-experts working together to find the best solution. The family and the patient are experts in what they want and know wh...

  It was theirs A few decades back Before the occupiers Drove them back Into the green belts Polluted air Cramped spaces Residing in fear They come in groups Early in the morning Trot around like Kings Before sun rising Remembering the days Past gone bye Survey their lands Dream of a future Created to care Rule over creation To flourish and live In harmonious relation Destroyed by greed Progress and power Nature ignored Relationships sour I dare to dream A day in future A renewed Kingdom With restored nature Humanity reigns Servants of the King Restored relationships Corulers of the King  

  A bird I saw Perched high Branches and leaves Rising above Perched high Resting alone Rising above Surveying scene   Resting alone Sun awaited Surveying scene Restfully waiting   Sun awaited Shadow I saw Surveying scene Falling on bird Shadow I saw Frightening heart Falling on bird Flying away Frightening heart Joined by flock Flying away Family to fly with   Joined by flock, Protection ensured Family to fly with To the rising sun…